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Test from http://www.mindmedia.com/brainworks/summary.jsp
Ailin, you possess an interesting balance of hemispheric and sensory characteristics, with a slight right-brain dominance and a slight preference for visual processing.
Since neither of these is completely centered, you lack the indecision and second-guessing associated with other patterns. You have a distinct preference for creativity and intuition with seemingly sufficient verbal skills to be able to translate in any meaningful way to yourself and others.
You tend to see things in "wholes" without surrendering the ability to attend to details. You can give them sufficient notice to be able to utitlize and incorporate them as part of an overall pattern.
In the same way, while you are active and process information simultaneously, you demonstrate a capacity for sequencing as well as reflection which allows for some "inner dialogue."
All in all, you are likely to be quite content with yourself and your style although at times it will not necessarily be appreciated by others. You have sufficient confidence to not second-guess yourself, but rather to use your critical faculties in a way that enhances, rather than limits, your creativity.
You can learn in either mode although far more efficiently within the visual mode. It is likely that in listening to conversations or lecture materials you simultaneously translate into pictures which enhance and elaborate on the meaning.
It is most likely that you will gravitate towards those endeavors which are predominantly visual but include some logic or structuring. You may either work particularly hard at cultivating your auditory skills or risk "missing out" on being able to efficiently process what you learn. Your own intuitive skills will at times interfere with your capacity to listen to others, which is something else you may need to take into account.

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Walking to work and rushing for work really makes a difference.The past few days had been madness for me. Not that i have done ultra exciting stuff,but because of the sleepless nights that torment and make me so listless and restless.Good thing that i fell into deep sleep the moment i lied onto my bed. That's why i feel alot better today. Dragged myself out of bed about 10 mins earlier and this made a difference! Yeah =)

Strolled out of house today and took my time to get to the station. Passed by the Macdonalds and thoughts,or rather memories started to flood my mind.. Those tedious days when i mugged hard in that mac came flowing in. How sitting in the mac or the school library was a daily routine for me. Wah!! Hated that kind of no-life life! haha. But on second thoughts,i miss school life. Contradiction!! Like school life but hates examinations that are definitely part of school life.

Realised that i have not write for a long time. That's why, this entry is going to be typed in completed sentences as far as possible. No more "..." it is definitely a bad habit.

Don't know if you guys out there believe in aroma-therapy,but for me, this therapy is beginning to have an impact on me and i am starting to see its function and use. Though expensive it is, the effects are actually there. During my A's period, my mother use it to help me relax by lighting the lavendar oil that put me to sleep soundly. For now,she uses another flavour that makes my room smell really nice and pleasant.Other than the nice smell(the aroma part) that prevails and lingers in my room,the therapy is felt in my bowel movements. Haha. Don't feel gross up because it is something realistic and true. Though i had diarroea for the first few days, i actually feels slightly lighter with all the useless toxins passed out. Feels healthier to a fairly large extent. Maybe you think it is psychological,but i somehow feels better..Haha. Now that i am used to good smells and clean air, i have lower tolerance for bad air. YUcks! So, don't know if this is a good thing or not.

sleEPleSS NIghTs

wah..what's wrong man.. i am now a walking zombie..tired but yet cant get to sleep..lie on my bed everything..with a blank and tired mind but just cannot fall asleep!!oh my god..now i am still in a blur state of mind..so if what i type is incomprehensible..just ignore ba..things cant and are not supposed to be like this..i am not stressed..neither am i tensed or worked out..but dunno why also..having insomnia..i hate it!! especially now that i am always late for work..cos i cant wake up on time in the morning..it is a vicious cycle.. one that i must get out of quickly..one way i have resorted to..is to watch tv late past mid night..watched till i start to tear and yawn hardly..but till now..these attempts are not succeeding..cos.. the moment i lie down...my mind blanks out..but i am subconsciously awake..another way i have tried is to fix the 1000 pieces puzzle that i have bought last year..but the problem is that i cant concentrate and my mind is very tired..terrible feeling! oh my gosh...who have better methods to put me to sleep..please share and i will be really thankful!

friENds foR LIfE

Had our annual bai nian session yesterday..it was great as it was full attendance yesterday!! once every one or two years? oh my gosh..so glad..started visiting from my house..followed by wen's,zhaorong's,huilee's and then lizhen's..too bad the rest their parents not in..if not will have more ang baos..haha..these seven years..other than wee ten..none of us have been to zhaorong's house..the furthest huilee and i got to was his door..yesterday was a day of recorded history man..though his parents not around..he still invited us there nonetheless..it was only when we got there then i realise his motive of getting us there---to finish up his new year cookies! haha..there were just so many bottles and cans and whatever you call them..many were still new and unopened..gosh..think maybe they can last him till christmas..haha..being exaggerating here..anyway..this is not a year for me yes me..to gamble..be it new year or whatsoever..whatever i play..i will lose money..(-_-''') this year..first time all of us breaking our trend of not gambling..not only did we break the trend..we play from house to house..bringing the game onwards irregardless of where we are..horrible! ahhaha..in the end.zhaorong was the utimate winner and for me..just the opposite of what he is..haha..okie fine..i dun really mind..as long as all of us had fun..and i supposed we did..cos we all got free dinner from him later..haha..other than gaming the whole day..we also chat and reminise our childish days..and came to a realisation that our clique was pretty scandaless..haha..friends for seven years le..this is the eighth already..seeing them finding their love ones..i feel happy for them too..i am also glad to meet and get to know all of them..this kind of feeling is really special because we are like siblings or eve closer than we are with our siblings..feels fortunate..though also envious sometimes..i am genuinely happy for them for finding pretty steady partners till now..please don't stress me pals..whatever will come..will come..haha..i am pretty passive when it comes to this..so maybe that is an indication that i need to meet someone active?haha..opposite attracts right?Getting crappy liao..let nature takes its course ba.. take care pals..till we meet up!

parAdoX for TodaY

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i went to chimes with my fren to take pictures and just walk around..as we were taking pictures like siao za bos..a guy who later introduced himself as kenn approached us to take a photo for him and his girlfriend..though he gave a crap reason--like losing his digi cam, which i dun think is true..i still help them take pictures la..cos such a memorable day without pictures will be quite sao xing for them..so..i took a few pics instead of one for them due to the lighting problems at night..they were thankful and paiseh at the same time.. then.......kenn came forward to introduce himself as well as his girlfriend..then he asked: "how do i address you?" like a trigger that sparks things off.. i answered "miss yeo" what duh la... it is really that stupid job of mine's fault..cos we are not supposed to reveal our names when the people on the other end of the line ask for our names and so..after working for two months as a telephone operator..my "natural instinct" answered " miss yeo" when the trigger is the question "how do i address you?".. cant he just ask "what is your name?" oh my gosh!!!!! the funniest part as well as the most malu-ing..was his reaction when he heard my reply.. the "huh" look makes me so paiseh..and it is only after my stupid reaction that i should be telling him my name and not my surname!!! alamak...i quickly changed my tone and said..no no call me ailin ba..then i saw his girlfriend trying to control her laughter..haha.. i was so so so malu by my own stupidity that gek my whole night! so so dui lian la..in the end..found out that he is only a year older than us..they must be thinking that i am such a weirdo to introduce myself as miss! what the *toot*!and this incident bugged me the rest of the night la.. esp when yw kept laughing as if she has caught the laughing gas..(~_~''')..

what a "memorable" day~

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growing up...a process everyone will go through and experience..inevitable..but if given a choice..i will want to turn back time and go back..back to those time when we were all innocent and when feelings were so pure and sincere..i know i am dreaming...in fact hoping for the impossible..but.. i am really keen to go back..and find out when exactly did the change start..was it me? or him? or them?i really treasure those beautiful moments..they form most of my memories for those years..can only reminisce them now all by myself..maybe i have missed that important moment..things are definitely different now..all i can do now is to move on..treasure what i have now so that such things will not happen again..at least to be sure that it will not be me who will cause any changes..

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HAPPy VAlENtINE'S Day!!

haix

haix..some things are really better to be left unknown..truth always hurts..a line that is always true..though truth does brightens up life at times..that is rare..went back to visit my old opendiary..then visited my frens' od..the old links..neglected them ever since i got a blog..this period of time i have blogged..plus the whole of 2004 that i have only visited my own diary less than 5 times..can you imagine how much i have missed out from those fren's update? i really feel like crying...dunno why also..just feeling very very emotional..though i know my sec3 and 4 years were not filled with wonderful memories..i still have nice classmates..and for my closest sec 3 fren.. i haven seen her for 2 years..or is it longer?really drifted away..went to read her od just now..read many entries at a go..trying to catch up all i have missed..not that i must be there for her..but i thought i could have been...and i am really guilty for not being there..maybe it is not too late to catch up with her now..just hope that we will be meeting up really soon..went To yj's od also..dun think she will ever come across this blog...cos i never leave any note in her diary..reading what she has written did not surprise me..in fact i knew that is how she has been feeling all along..and i have just been avoiding and avoiding..guess she is doing the same.. but why are things like this? i dunno.. and i am too lazy to find out..why am i having this attitude? becos of her attachment to ck?becos i think that she no longer treasure us? her entry about "dun feel like meeting us" just hurts..though i felt extra whenever i try to ask her out..i was not hurt cos i thought i was just thinking too much..in fact..i felt angry..angry at her for treating us as 'secondary'..always using her mum as an excuse..hey come on.. i really dun think that your mum is so strict and strigent especially when you are coming out with us.. understand you can be busy..but please..dun use ur mum as an excuse..it is not as if i dunno her..dun use my understanding and empathy often and take them for granted k..now that you have admitted it in your od..admitted that you dun feel like going out with us..thinking that i am never going to read it..you are wrong.. or maybe..you wanted me to read it..you wanted me to know..is it really the case? you want me to know?why dun we just talk? over the phone? meet up? whatever also can..it is only a matter of whether we want..or rather.. i should say..whether you have the time..if i haven called you yesterday..you would have forgotten about the shopping trip i have asked you about..the tone you gave me over the phone gave you away..i want and hope you can understand that your boyfren is NOT EVERYTHING! you might think that i am jealous of your relationship by saying this..but if you really want to think it that way..put me in that light and think that hf and i object to your relationship..i am disappointed..utter disappointment is it..i just want you to know that we are genuinely happy that you have found him..but..please put yourself in our shoes if you still treasure the frenship..we dun mind you talk to us about him..in fact i will be happy to share your bliss and sweetness of the relationship if you are willing to tell..but..please..when you are out with us..make us feel that you want to be here and not that you have to be here.. if you are feeling this way..i rather you dun come..it might sound really harsh but really..what is the point of meeting up everytime when you will be pressing your phone every now and then..looking through your files and stuff when we are meeting to shop..ya..i understand that you are busy...but it is not as if we are meeting everyday..all i am asking for is that you can set aside time...allocate your time wisely..dun be present without your heart..it just pisses me off..there is only so much that i will try..i hope you feel it..guess i should get you to read this entry..if not..guessing games and misunderstandings will soon follow..i have no energy for that. ARH!

blaah...bleah..whatever

Days since i last blogged..nothing much to write actually..but just feel like typing..so..read on if you are bored..but if you are hoping for something interesting or funny to entertain..i am afraid it is abit tough...haha..okok..enough of crap..hmmm..pia jue dai shuang jiao for the past few nights..just in case you dunno..it is not the jue shi that is screening on channel 8 it is their father's version..the actual jue dai fighters..haha..so..can imagine my confusion while i pia jue dai's vcd and chased jue shi on channel 8..similar characters..actors..wah..got to think as i watch..trying to see if have any links..nonetheless..both are nice! yeah..happy..with the jue dai and jue shi as well as the bo li xie..they are what that occupied me for the past few nights..really hooked to the tv le..

but for yesterday..i had a break to that enjoyment..partly because i have been hoarding the big tv in the living room for the past few days all by myself..it is time for my parents to watch whatever they want on scv..so.. i went to dig out my teddy puzzle and began my 1000 pieces challenge..haha...the different shades of brown..the different fur belonging to the different bears really make me blur after a while..the awkward shapes of the puzzle make things worse..felt like a old granny staring hard at the pieces..after about 45 mins..i managed to filter out the borders and fixed the different corners and parts..let's see how long i will take to finish the whole master piece..haha..

going to shop again tonight..hopefully can get those things that i want to buy..yeap..enough blabbering liao..haha..byee..

MuAhaha

Yay!! new year coming le..also dunno why..but feel really happy and excited about it..maybe is the thought of going back to malaysia and meeting all my cousins and relatives that is exciting me..ya..and my nieces and nephews..yipee! Cant really feel the 'new year atmosphere' until i went chinatown shopping last night..wow...can feel that kind of vibrance and excitment in anticipation of the coming new year..though it was really crowded and squeezy and hot..the fact that everyone was busy shopping,bargaining and even sight-seeing simply made the dirty and small back lanes of chinatown lively and happening.. almost everyone had bags of things on their hands..be it new year cookies or new clothings..as for me..there was no exception!! haha..bought three pants(pretty funky ones) at a go..think my craving to shop has not subsided..but instead..growing strong..haha..my clothes are rapidly increasing in numbers to only squeeze in the limited capacity cupboard...time to throw stuff away..but after packing and unpacking through the night on saturday..i only managed to pick out a few pieces of clothes(really really cmi ones) to be given or thrown away..many new additions with few eliminations..shall give some to my ma..hahah..a msg to my "shopping ka kees" especially wing and hf..remind me to shop wisely k..haha..think i am really overspending.. that's all.. HAPPY anticipation for new year everyone!

niCe neW YEar reFLectioNS( frOM hoTMail)

A wonderful Message by George Carlin:
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less. These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion,big man and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer,to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.

*Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
*Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
*Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

*Remember, to say, "I love you" to your spouse and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
*Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

George Carlin

hMmMmM

hey..
please dun take me for granted..silence doesn't mean consent..my tolerance level is only that high..i am near the limit already.. but..none of you sense my sadness and frustrations..in your eyes..i seem to be one who is easily irritated,petty and stingy..oh ya..i am not a spendthrift though i like to shop..but i am not stingy..i spend only when necessary..and for now..i am on tight budget due to the delayed pay..do you really think that i dun feel like buying things for ual? can you understand my situation now? i need to think twice before buying something..just wait..wait till i get my pay..can you stop demanding so much? i will do what i promised..i will..i will.. all i need is a bit more time.idiotic pay is all i can blame..i really think you dun understand me and guess this is the bothering factor..my black face means anger..that is what you see and think.. you have never try to think why that anger is present.. can you be fairer to me?your treatment towards them and me.. maybe you can say that i am jealous..i think i am..but..it is your actions that make me jealous..i know i have always been a very independent person..but that doesn't give you the excuse to show less concern for me..people who are independent also requires care and concern from others and a shoulder to lean on sometimes..they get tired too please..they have emotions too.no less..but even more..now i am super unhappy..maybe i am harbing too much on it..but i can't help it..you care less for me..but demand more from me.. what's this?i know you wun see this..you wun feel my sadness..all you see is a spoilt brat throwing tantrums..giving you black face..whatever.

HaRi RAya weEKend

heeHEE..though the long weekend has come to an end..i am still suffering from hangover..not meaning that i have drink or anything..but the freaking long shopping trips and never-seem-to stop meals..haha..really enjoyed this kind of carefree life.. yiPEe! shall now give a recap of what happened the past three days to "re-enjoy" the moments..haha

Friday...

woke up early to bathe and slack abit before waiting for my tuitee to come..after which..brouhgt her home for the first time as her mum was not free..being her tutor for 2years odd..this is the first time i went to her house..pretty neat and big from the front door's view..didnt go in cos i was kinda in a rush to meet my sec sch clique..despite my late arrival at lavender..i was still the EARLIEST... dotz... waited for nearly an hour before all gathered and left for the army market..the wait was kinda worthwhile as i really wanted to see how botak the 3 of them were...amused and amazed when i finally got to see them...they became so self conscious the moment we pull off their caps..LOLx..think i quite bad and mischievious cos of my itchy hands..but nvm..haha..thought that we would be bored by their incomprehensible army language but suprisingly..the 3 of us were amused and i really laughed till tears start to well up...their encounters are so entertaining and the retale was made more animated by marcus la..his F****** ****** was the line of the day..though crude in its content..the pitch of the wordings and the thought of the animated sergent made me burst into laughter the moment the phrase was mentioned..hahah..nonetheless..scary and eerie stories were also shared..not too bad cos we are hanging around in a group..lucky..saw fabian at army market!! so qiao.. he looks quite good botak..not bad..haha..at least natural..saw a few familiar faces here and there..guess it was the shopping day for army guys..saw yanwen and ian too..haha..quite a fruitful day..

After the shopping trip meant only for them..we decided to go town and then marche for dinner!! met ahlam,mervyn and gang on our way to heerens..wahahaa.."my twin" slim down le!!happy for him..but he looks quite sick..

"take care,brother!"

After the sumptuous marche dinner and photo takings..we hanged around aimlessly before coming up with the thought of taking neoprints!!waha..it has been quite a long while since all 6 of us were present for the whole day..taking 2 neoprints took us an hour odd..really funny poses and weird expressions..especially like the pic when the gals put on the botaks' caps..they have really little hair!!god gracious!

Went to swensens after that..not really hungry..but just needed a place to rest our feet and quench out thirst..ordered the crumbles-both bananas and apple and found the banana crumble nicer =) slacked till 11plus..went home after that..a really long day outside

Saturday--SAT(pun!!)

woked up early morning to get ready to go St Francis methodist for my test..feel really tired..then got this feeling that i will fall asleep while reading the passage...met wing at the bus stop..the school looks grand mostly due to it being a joint building with the church..cool sia~ the test was pretty smooth sailing other than those expected killer verbal questions..ya..so..expected was the word la..haha.. went to meet ma at plaza for lunch before shopping around for a while..wanted to go to the salon with ma so that she can perm her hair again but in the end didnt cos we went home to take my band stuff so that i can head for band directly from there..and lazily..i sank into deep sleep while lying on mum's bed waiting for her..haha..before i know anything.. ma was also beside me!!lolx..guess it was the after lunch syndrome..soon..it was time to go band..woke up and went to met xp at the interchange pretty blurly..haha..band prac was exciting..cos we side read and the band is really young..attendance was bad..very bad..and i really hope those who have given your word to play for the coming concert will really commit your time..and frankly speaking..the practice hours so far is not too demanding ya..once a week for a few hours..so..please do your part.

Sunday...

After tuition in the morning..met wing for shopping in town..with our mental shopping list..we went from one shop to another..one shopping centre to the next without much break in between..so by the end of the 6 and a half hour shopping..resting our legs beside the fountain in heerens was heavenly..haha..though i only bought toro's book at the end of the day..the trip was not considered wasted as i manage to get a clearer idea of what is suitable for me and what is not..what is expensive and what is not..what is funky and what is not..hahha..goodie!! pinning my hopes on J8 tmr..hopefully can get what i want.. =) secondly..the trip was also not wasted cos wing bought her skirt and jeans..da feng shou ar..haha..good good..listening to stef's album these few days..think i will buy one for myself soon..so can return to fang..haha

BItcHy?

stupid la.. looks like i am not going to get my pay this month again..ever since before prom.. i have been working..but till now.. i am still pay-less!! what's wrong man.. the system is so screwed and rigid that it is more or less confirmed that i will get my pay only end of next month..what is this??? free labour for close to two and a half months? i am living off my savings k!!!not that my parents refuse to give me allowance..but i just dun want to get money from them ya..why should i be working if i still wants pocket money from them?stupid stupid..work=no work..ya.. you can say that it is only a matter of time.. i will get my money anyway..but this timing is pretty important ya.. by the time i get my pay..new year will be over..and that means.i am going to face tight budget for my new year shopping!! for a shopping freak like me.. i seriously detest this kind of "restrained" shopping that i rather do without..ya..frens say that i can always get a loan from my parents first..pay them when i get my pay..but..that is not really the point right..i am sure i will get the money if i asked..but it is the delay of payment that gets on my nerves..how can one owes payment for so long? i thought one and a half month is bad enough?wonder who can and will tell me when exactly i will get my pay..not only me..but my collegues as well..temps need money k..if not why do you think we are working?? ridiculous..guess this is the main thing that is pissing me off..thought i will cool down after a good night's rest..this issue is still bugging me the moment i stepped into office today..it is simply the inefficiency and stupid system to blame..really cant stand it!!!!!!!! feel like cursing and swearing..but what's the point???? what can we do as small fishes in the big organisation..all we can do is wait...IRRITATION! i have been waiting since 4thjan..the supposed payment date for the month of dec last year..this kind of endless waiting is really really testing my patience..

alEXis and BEng..

Gals..i'm sorry..for not being able to go to your NIE concert at a pretty last minute..though things are not confirmed as yet..i got the feeling that i won't make it there..though i will try my best.. no matter what.. have my moral support ya..may the concert be a great success!!

Jia yOU!!

SUrpRise suRprise

THANK YOU!! Amanda,Lynn,Sijia and Wing!!

thanks for the presents and i was really surprised to get them in the first place..surprise because i dun expect anything from u four together..esp lynn and sijia..surprise also because the things ual bought are very tie1 qie4..meaning they are things i have intention of buying..haha..thanks!! you3 xin1 le..

miSS yOU??

hahah zhu tou..this entry is dedicated to you la..not anybody else.. GET WELL SOON K??? we taking SAT this sat lei...must at least have a clear head when you go in k.. drink lotsa water..dun eat fried chicken no matter how appealing they look..as well as all those rubbishy junk food.. get well fast so that you can soon enjoy the treat from me!!haha..if not..we need to drool till you are well again k.. cant wait for the meal right?? so.. GET WELL SOON!! aiya you rubbish la..ask me to miss you.. i dunno how to lor..cos i enjoyed the peaceful morning train ride today..so quiet and pleasant..you should have seen the bliss look on my face...hahahahaha... dun whack me.. kidding only la..updating to entertain you cos i know you will be super bored at home especially when you wake up so so early for dunno watever reason..go back to sleep la...go see a doctor..hopefully can see you tmr..as for your anger last night..chill it k??guess we just need more time to communicate with them effectively..if not age gap such a term wun exist right?? kk..take care!