Thursday, February 24, 2005


Test from
Ailin, you possess an interesting balance of hemispheric and sensory characteristics, with a slight right-brain dominance and a slight preference for visual processing.
Since neither of these is completely centered, you lack the indecision and second-guessing associated with other patterns. You have a distinct preference for creativity and intuition with seemingly sufficient verbal skills to be able to translate in any meaningful way to yourself and others.
You tend to see things in "wholes" without surrendering the ability to attend to details. You can give them sufficient notice to be able to utitlize and incorporate them as part of an overall pattern.
In the same way, while you are active and process information simultaneously, you demonstrate a capacity for sequencing as well as reflection which allows for some "inner dialogue."
All in all, you are likely to be quite content with yourself and your style although at times it will not necessarily be appreciated by others. You have sufficient confidence to not second-guess yourself, but rather to use your critical faculties in a way that enhances, rather than limits, your creativity.
You can learn in either mode although far more efficiently within the visual mode. It is likely that in listening to conversations or lecture materials you simultaneously translate into pictures which enhance and elaborate on the meaning.
It is most likely that you will gravitate towards those endeavors which are predominantly visual but include some logic or structuring. You may either work particularly hard at cultivating your auditory skills or risk "missing out" on being able to efficiently process what you learn. Your own intuitive skills will at times interfere with your capacity to listen to others, which is something else you may need to take into account.


Walking to work and rushing for work really makes a difference.The past few days had been madness for me. Not that i have done ultra exciting stuff,but because of the sleepless nights that torment and make me so listless and restless.Good thing that i fell into deep sleep the moment i lied onto my bed. That's why i feel alot better today. Dragged myself out of bed about 10 mins earlier and this made a difference! Yeah =)
Strolled out of house today and took my time to get to the station. Passed by the Macdonalds and thoughts,or rather memories started to flood my mind.. Those tedious days when i mugged hard in that mac came flowing in. How sitting in the mac or the school library was a daily routine for me. Wah!! Hated that kind of no-life life! haha. But on second thoughts,i miss school life. Contradiction!! Like school life but hates examinations that are definitely part of school life.
Realised that i have not write for a long time. That's why, this entry is going to be typed in completed sentences as far as possible. No more "..." it is definitely a bad habit.
Don't know if you guys out there believe in aroma-therapy,but for me, this therapy is beginning to have an impact on me and i am starting to see its function and use. Though expensive it is, the effects are actually there. During my A's period, my mother use it to help me relax by lighting the lavendar oil that put me to sleep soundly. For now,she uses another flavour that makes my room smell really nice and pleasant.Other than the nice smell(the aroma part) that prevails and lingers in my room,the therapy is felt in my bowel movements. Haha. Don't feel gross up because it is something realistic and true. Though i had diarroea for the first few days, i actually feels slightly lighter with all the useless toxins passed out. Feels healthier to a fairly large extent. Maybe you think it is psychological,but i somehow feels better..Haha. Now that i am used to good smells and clean air, i have lower tolerance for bad air. YUcks! So, don't know if this is a good thing or not.

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

sleEPleSS NIghTs

wah..what's wrong man.. i am now a walking zombie..tired but yet cant get to sleep..lie on my bed everything..with a blank and tired mind but just cannot fall asleep!!oh my i am still in a blur state of if what i type is incomprehensible..just ignore ba..things cant and are not supposed to be like this..i am not stressed..neither am i tensed or worked out..but dunno why also..having insomnia..i hate it!! especially now that i am always late for work..cos i cant wake up on time in the is a vicious cycle.. one that i must get out of way i have resorted to watch tv late past mid night..watched till i start to tear and yawn hardly..but till now..these attempts are not succeeding..cos.. the moment i lie mind blanks out..but i am subconsciously awake..another way i have tried is to fix the 1000 pieces puzzle that i have bought last year..but the problem is that i cant concentrate and my mind is very tired..terrible feeling! oh my gosh...who have better methods to put me to sleep..please share and i will be really thankful!

Monday, February 21, 2005

friENds foR LIfE

Had our annual bai nian session was great as it was full attendance yesterday!! once every one or two years? oh my glad..started visiting from my house..followed by wen's,zhaorong's,huilee's and then lizhen's..too bad the rest their parents not in..if not will have more ang baos..haha..these seven years..other than wee ten..none of us have been to zhaorong's house..the furthest huilee and i got to was his door..yesterday was a day of recorded history man..though his parents not around..he still invited us there was only when we got there then i realise his motive of getting us there---to finish up his new year cookies! haha..there were just so many bottles and cans and whatever you call them..many were still new and unopened..gosh..think maybe they can last him till christmas..haha..being exaggerating here..anyway..this is not a year for me yes it new year or whatsoever..whatever i play..i will lose money..(-_-''') this year..first time all of us breaking our trend of not gambling..not only did we break the trend..we play from house to house..bringing the game onwards irregardless of where we are..horrible! the end.zhaorong was the utimate winner and for me..just the opposite of what he is..haha..okie fine..i dun really long as all of us had fun..and i supposed we did..cos we all got free dinner from him later..haha..other than gaming the whole day..we also chat and reminise our childish days..and came to a realisation that our clique was pretty scandaless..haha..friends for seven years le..this is the eighth already..seeing them finding their love ones..i feel happy for them too..i am also glad to meet and get to know all of them..this kind of feeling is really special because we are like siblings or eve closer than we are with our siblings..feels fortunate..though also envious sometimes..i am genuinely happy for them for finding pretty steady partners till now..please don't stress me pals..whatever will come..will come..haha..i am pretty passive when it comes to maybe that is an indication that i need to meet someone active?haha..opposite attracts right?Getting crappy liao..let nature takes its course ba.. take care pals..till we meet up!

Thursday, February 17, 2005

parAdoX for TodaY

A perfect life is imperfect

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

i m winnie the pooh..hahah

FrUity tESt

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by

ExasPEraTEd valENtinE

i went to chimes with my fren to take pictures and just walk we were taking pictures like siao za bos..a guy who later introduced himself as kenn approached us to take a photo for him and his girlfriend..though he gave a crap reason--like losing his digi cam, which i dun think is true..i still help them take pictures la..cos such a memorable day without pictures will be quite sao xing for took a few pics instead of one for them due to the lighting problems at night..they were thankful and paiseh at the same time.. then.......kenn came forward to introduce himself as well as his girlfriend..then he asked: "how do i address you?" like a trigger that sparks things off.. i answered "miss yeo" what duh la... it is really that stupid job of mine's fault..cos we are not supposed to reveal our names when the people on the other end of the line ask for our names and so..after working for two months as a telephone "natural instinct" answered " miss yeo" when the trigger is the question "how do i address you?".. cant he just ask "what is your name?" oh my gosh!!!!! the funniest part as well as the most malu-ing..was his reaction when he heard my reply.. the "huh" look makes me so paiseh..and it is only after my stupid reaction that i should be telling him my name and not my surname!!! alamak...i quickly changed my tone and no call me ailin ba..then i saw his girlfriend trying to control her laughter..haha.. i was so so so malu by my own stupidity that gek my whole night! so so dui lian the end..found out that he is only a year older than us..they must be thinking that i am such a weirdo to introduce myself as miss! what the *toot*!and this incident bugged me the rest of the night la.. esp when yw kept laughing as if she has caught the laughing gas..(~_~''')..
what a "memorable" day~

Monday, February 14, 2005


growing up...a process everyone will go through and experience..inevitable..but if given a choice..i will want to turn back time and go back..back to those time when we were all innocent and when feelings were so pure and sincere..i know i am fact hoping for the impossible..but.. i am really keen to go back..and find out when exactly did the change start..was it me? or him? or them?i really treasure those beautiful moments..they form most of my memories for those years..can only reminisce them now all by myself..maybe i have missed that important moment..things are definitely different now..all i can do now is to move on..treasure what i have now so that such things will not happen least to be sure that it will not be me who will cause any changes..



Friday, February 04, 2005


haix..some things are really better to be left unknown..truth always hurts..a line that is always true..though truth does brightens up life at times..that is rare..went back to visit my old opendiary..then visited my frens' od..the old links..neglected them ever since i got a blog..this period of time i have the whole of 2004 that i have only visited my own diary less than 5 times..can you imagine how much i have missed out from those fren's update? i really feel like crying...dunno why also..just feeling very very emotional..though i know my sec3 and 4 years were not filled with wonderful memories..i still have nice classmates..and for my closest sec 3 fren.. i haven seen her for 2 years..or is it longer?really drifted away..went to read her od just many entries at a go..trying to catch up all i have missed..not that i must be there for her..but i thought i could have been...and i am really guilty for not being there..maybe it is not too late to catch up with her now..just hope that we will be meeting up really soon..went To yj's od also..dun think she will ever come across this blog...cos i never leave any note in her diary..reading what she has written did not surprise fact i knew that is how she has been feeling all along..and i have just been avoiding and avoiding..guess she is doing the same.. but why are things like this? i dunno.. and i am too lazy to find out..why am i having this attitude? becos of her attachment to ck?becos i think that she no longer treasure us? her entry about "dun feel like meeting us" just hurts..though i felt extra whenever i try to ask her out..i was not hurt cos i thought i was just thinking too fact..i felt angry..angry at her for treating us as 'secondary'..always using her mum as an excuse..hey come on.. i really dun think that your mum is so strict and strigent especially when you are coming out with us.. understand you can be busy..but please..dun use ur mum as an is not as if i dunno her..dun use my understanding and empathy often and take them for granted that you have admitted it in your od..admitted that you dun feel like going out with us..thinking that i am never going to read are wrong.. or wanted me to read wanted me to it really the case? you want me to know?why dun we just talk? over the phone? meet up? whatever also is only a matter of whether we want..or rather.. i should say..whether you have the time..if i haven called you would have forgotten about the shopping trip i have asked you about..the tone you gave me over the phone gave you away..i want and hope you can understand that your boyfren is NOT EVERYTHING! you might think that i am jealous of your relationship by saying this..but if you really want to think it that way..put me in that light and think that hf and i object to your relationship..i am disappointed..utter disappointment is it..i just want you to know that we are genuinely happy that you have found him..but..please put yourself in our shoes if you still treasure the frenship..we dun mind you talk to us about fact i will be happy to share your bliss and sweetness of the relationship if you are willing to tell..but..please..when you are out with us..make us feel that you want to be here and not that you have to be here.. if you are feeling this way..i rather you dun might sound really harsh but really..what is the point of meeting up everytime when you will be pressing your phone every now and then..looking through your files and stuff when we are meeting to shop..ya..i understand that you are busy...but it is not as if we are meeting everyday..all i am asking for is that you can set aside time...allocate your time wisely..dun be present without your just pisses me off..there is only so much that i will try..i hope you feel it..guess i should get you to read this entry..if not..guessing games and misunderstandings will soon follow..i have no energy for that. ARH!

Thursday, February 03, 2005


Days since i last blogged..nothing much to write actually..but just feel like on if you are bored..but if you are hoping for something interesting or funny to entertain..i am afraid it is abit tough...haha..okok..enough of crap..hmmm..pia jue dai shuang jiao for the past few nights..just in case you is not the jue shi that is screening on channel 8 it is their father's version..the actual jue dai imagine my confusion while i pia jue dai's vcd and chased jue shi on channel 8..similar to think as i watch..trying to see if have any links..nonetheless..both are nice! yeah..happy..with the jue dai and jue shi as well as the bo li xie..they are what that occupied me for the past few nights..really hooked to the tv le..
but for yesterday..i had a break to that enjoyment..partly because i have been hoarding the big tv in the living room for the past few days all by is time for my parents to watch whatever they want on i went to dig out my teddy puzzle and began my 1000 pieces challenge..haha...the different shades of brown..the different fur belonging to the different bears really make me blur after a while..the awkward shapes of the puzzle make things worse..felt like a old granny staring hard at the pieces..after about 45 mins..i managed to filter out the borders and fixed the different corners and parts..let's see how long i will take to finish the whole master piece..haha..
going to shop again tonight..hopefully can get those things that i want to buy..yeap..enough blabbering liao..haha..byee..