Announcement!

Heyo!! Rv and Yuhua combined alumni band will be having a concert on 12th June 2005, 5pm at Victoria Concert Hall. Those who are free and feel like giving me support, please come ok? Those who can appreciate band music, must come to support as we are really practising hard to give the best for this shot..For those who do not understand or think that you can't appreciate band music, must also come.. because..music is a universal language and i am sure u will have a pleasant evening listening to what we have to present..so, in short, this is a concert not to be missed as a bonus added to this will be the fact that i am performing!! haha..really hope to see friends turning up yea? Tickets are at $12 and $15..Should be pretty affordable for those who are working.. so, please answer to my call and come for the concert k? Hundred and one thanks to all.. Feel free to contact me any time for ticket order!

ill-tempered

Dun talk to me today. i might just step on your toes. Leave me alone.. reaching my limit.

rainy rainy

It is such a cold and rainy morning. The sky was completely dark and gloomy when i woke up- such a sad morning. I thought it was 6 in the morning that i collapsed onto my bed again..till my mum came in to wake me up again..only to find me sleep-talking haha.. i thought i was conscious, but to my surprise, i was semi-conscious as i talked rubbishly..haha..

*stupid!*

It is wednesday today--mid-week. By the mid of next month, i will be totally free- free from everything- free from work, free from tuition, free from band practice since we will be taking a short break. Wah, can see i am really going to be free! hahahhaha.. happy and also sad at the same time. Think i will slack..enjoy my last month before school starts by settling some stuff, some thoughts and move on to embrace the next phrase of my life. Shall really take time off to do the things i have been putting off--before everything is too late.. Think i shall take up some part time job in the meantime in order to support my living in the last month before school starts. Shall look for some jobs taht i have never done before, try new things and new environments if i can find.

I miss you-- this "you" is not you but you..not only him but also her..haha, i am trying to be stupid here..i miss school life, i miss times spent with frens in school! Guess i will miss work once school starts.. woman!

in A dAZe THRouGHOut

Phew, the long weekend flew pass just like that.. i lost track of time and date and day during long weekends. When it is saturday, i will think that it is sunday. And when it is sunday, i will think that it is saturday and there is still time to spend fruitfully..bleah.. blur blur.

Went to RJCO concert to support yj. Realise that for the first time, i am appreciating CO music.haha. Like the string instruments and the er hu soloist really impressed me! zai! In the past, iu have always find CO music loud and there is nothing more than mere loudness and wa wa suo na sounds. Apologises if i am offending anyone, but that was really how i felt in the past. At least for now, i like the string instruments.. nice nice! Went to j8 for dinner at 1130pm and met alexis and daniel who were there to watch star wars III..wanted to watch with them.. but, got to go home especially for the sake that i have a sleepover the next day. Cant be staying out the whole weekends..if not i will be slaughtered! haha

Saturday morning was relaxed without having to give tuition before rushing for band in the afternoon. My slacked morning was disrupted by weizhi( a 14 months old baby) who pinched me awoke at 930am when i slept at 2am on friday..Grrrr.. though tired and disturbed, my unhappiness melted the moment i saw the innocent and cute grin on his face.. he is soooooooo cute! haha..he is my mum's collegue's darling..haha..spent my whole morning with him.. guess we enjoyed each other's company.. so much so that when i went to bath, he started crying out loud.. scare me! (-_-''') In the end, my bath was done in a rush.. with constant shoutings "weizhi,jie jie is here..hush hush.."realise that it can be quite a big headache when babies become attached to you. Nonetheless, he is so so so ke ai! I feel so relaxed and innocent under his influence..hehe

i supposed this intensive band practices are helping me catch up with my long lost skills..good good. at least i do not feel so demoralised after practices these days..yay! With the great guidance of felix, i feel much better playing,individually as well as as a section.. he is so zai! hehe. i really hope that things will turn out smoothly.. jia you band!!!

Met yvonne and wing at serangoon to ton over at yvonne's place. And with this outing, i have come out with the conclusion that yvonne can overthrow wing to be the chairman of sotong sec! haha. Due to last minute crop outs,only me and wing turned up and waited for yvonne at serangoon station at 8pm...waited and waited then our new sotong head messaged to ask us to leave the station via exit c.. obediently, wing and i walked to the bus stop at exit c and waited..then she called to ask where were we as she could not see us anywhere.. and right, we were waiting at different bus stops.. then we heard her say go to exit d as she typed the msg wrongly..feeling exasperated, we dragged ourselves over..and only to realise that she meant exit b.. fine.. then we started walking out of exit b..and ended up at a cross road where we were told to turn right..it was just so lucky of us to be at an exit that branch into two different exits.. and the two different exits will then bring us to turn at the wrong 'right' that we were supposed to turn. All these brought about a blurry night walk around serangoon gardens on an empty stomach.Everything was then compensated by the sumptuous dinner at chomp chomp..wow! haha..so nice! Although only three of us, we ordered hokkien mee,fried tofu,wanton mee,stingray and three really big cups of sugar cane!! haha.. so full that we got to give up wing's craving for chicken wings..must go there again if i can!yay!! With a filled-to-the-brim tummy, we went home for a through-the-night mahjong session.. not too bad playing 3 kakis mahjong..chatted and played at the same time, feel like some taitais.. haha. K.O at around 3 plus, only to find ourselves awakened and sweating profusely as the aircon was auto switched off.

(-_-''') Other than that, i slept like a log for the remaining hours. Had a short badminton game in the morning..haha..to think that beng had actually geked me that section had fun playing..cant really run much with my leg..but think it is on its recovery path..bleah bleah

Here comes the more exciting part of our stayover.. We went to geylang to explore in the region and find the nice food that we have always heard of. Jaime and weiting joined us in this quest. Hoping to see people we do not usually see, we were the ones ended up being seen. bloody hell.. the uncles and men there were SERIOUSLY IRRITATING! god gracious.. regretted going there.. were really being stared from head to toe... i was really, seriously disgusted by the facts of life.. *pi!*

Rushed home to dump my mahjong set before setting off to town to meet my primary school gang.. miss them! haha.. always have endless topics and gossips to share and laugh at..though tired and was experiencing hangover, meeting them somehow managed to make me alive and awake..haha.. went to marche and then took many pictures with funny poses at the youth park. First time that louis is so on about taking photos with so many funny poses.. yay! happiness..

Time always fly when we are having fun.. now that i am back in office.. time is crawling..crawling....

a PrEtTY SHOrt weEK..

Time flew pass pretty fast this week. In a twikle of an eye, the long weekend is here already!! yay! I realise that weekdays band practices are pretty exciting in the sense that people are seen rushing around..the rather busty environment makes me happy, because i see people,because i sense the urgency in all of us..a really good feeling..Haha..Though we have not perfected our pieces, i have confidence that we will do it really soon! All the way band!

A week without tuition seems so free. Just as it is a break for the kids, it is heaven for me too!Haha..

I went back to nj on wednesday with section to support shuhui's art exhibition. Though small scale in nature,i am deeply moved my shuhui's art pieces. Be it the initial muse for the art work or the subsequent completion and effort injected into the drawings, i can feel the deep emotions expressed through the drawings. "Shuhui, you have succeeded in expressing yourself! i am so proud of you.."Can see that she is really concern about and love her grandfather.

I am disappointed in him. Once again. Maybe what she said is right, he has got more flaws than strengths.sigh.

Looking forward to meet up with se shu jun and cindy..haha!

Saturation

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI MEI!

haha..having hangover after not sleeping on saturday and sleeping for only about 6hours on sunday..i am like a zombie today! god gracious..i want to sleep! haha. The chalet was short, but time was utilised to the maximum especially for me,ade,xinru and xinpei as we hung on throughtout without sleeping..haha..Had a good nice chat over the night.i cant wait for our chalet at the end of the year again..like this kind of gatherings..girls talk,card games and heart to heart sharing.. though bai ka, my arms proved to be still useful when i played the stagnant beach volley when i was to play with minimum movement..yay!haha..now my upper body aching all over..

think i am arriving at a conclusion, finally.

thank You!!!

"hey senior..thanks for all your help and advice regarding my dilemma..really a big big thanks! Though i have yet to decide what i really want.. the talk with you really makes me think more and your advice are also useful in my consideration! hahah.. though i do not think that you will get to read this.. i must still thank you. You are really a good senior.."

And who is this good senior i am blabbering about? *ta dang* he is...

jinzhan!

haha..after he learnt about my so called problem..

i have been receiving msges from him as he has been asking his frens who are in biz..so helpful!

heheh..so i am kinda touched..haha..

Weekend is round the corner again..but with my bandaged ankle,it is definitely going to hinder my movements..ah! bai ka!!!!!

i dun care, i will still go to chalet. At most i dun go into the water..bleah bleah..

Still got to go back to the sensei tmr..for a change of medicine..for more bitter medication to be consumed. .I wonder why i need to eat medicine when the injured part is my ankle..guess i was too much in pain to actually remember that i should ask them why do i need to take the medicine.Yee..so bitter! Will never ask for syrup for chinese medicine again..think pills are better.

Not feeling really happy these days ..get fed up really easily.. Irritated and frustrated with the things that are happening around me. Irritating people all around. People who are ever so "disturbing" in nature. Looking at them simply gets on my nerves!! weekend..please come soon!Maybe they are not that irritating afterall..just that i am irritated.

Tears are not rolling these days.. it is not as if i like to cry..just that my tears are usually tears of laughter.. for those who knows me well, they'll know that i have active tear glands..if i laugh too whole-heartedly..tears will start rolling..no exaggeration..sometimes i will even feel paiseh cos the tears just keep coming out. So, if you want to judge whether i am leading a happy life, or whether there are things bothering me, measure the amount of tears i shed! hahah.lame.

oh ya..today is FRIDAY THE 13TH! take care everybody.. for me, the day didn't start off well.. cos the LRT train was ultra packed that i was squeezed at the door for the entire trip..and due to the fact that i could not board the LRT i usually take due to the maximum capacity being reached,i missed 2 MRTs that will bring me to work! So..ultra late for work today. Hope as the day passes, things will get better..shopping shopping tonight at the place where i sprained my ankle. bless me! haha.

FEelinG vExed...

Help me!! Where should i go? i seriously think that i am bad at choosing and making a decision that will concern my future! Gosh..Really caught in between them. i like abit of this and abit of that. Guess i am simply greedy, wanting the best in the world. That's why i am feeling so vexed now as it is impossible for me to be in both of them...realised that i am blabbering on and on.. it is about uni..applied for both nus and ntu biz..got both..now confused as to where i want to go.. bleah.. advice!

POOooor leg

I sprained my ankle!! What duh.. Really saded and pretty amazed by the way and place i have actually fallen. Practically flew down the steps..Gosh! I feel so handicapped even though it is only the ankle--can understand how wenwei felt-- ('_' "") Just hope to be able to walk easily again..

PlanNIng NeedEd!!

May day coming..looking forward to the long weekend..as usual..trying my best to organise my time..hopefully i will not screw things up.. frens,do bear with me..i know i am pretty greedy to want to attend almost everything..but that also means that i treasure each and every one of the group outings and want to be there =) One more event to be added to my list is the visit of my cousins from malaysia..want to spend more time hosting them but at the same time,i don't want to cancel my pre-planned activities with my friends. So, i guess i should get my cousins to join us? haha..that is only a thought.. shall see how things go.

I feel that i am treating him quite badly and rudely at ths same time..but i do not mean it,seriously. I shall try to control and hold back my tendency to show attitude. Sorry.

Though i am actually keeping a blog, my writing, or rather phrasing and typing skills do not seem to be getting better. The supposed sentence structures and correct punctuations are significantly absent at the right places. Guilty guilty...

=)

A call from you to share something will make my day! Whether you know it or not, thanks!

haPpy!!!??

Puzzled...




Anxious...



Excited...



JOy!!



Indecision now..



Maybe i shouldn't think too much..




It has been what i wanted all along.. shouldn't i be elated to be selected?




Shall continue to ingulge myself in happiness..



no regrets.

Ubin outing

Mosquito bites are the aftermath and "memories" after yesterday's outing.. Hahah..guess it is the price to pay after one day of fun and heat as well. Woke up early on the cloudy sunday morning..dragged myself out of bed having to have slept only at 2am on saturday..tired tired..but excited to go ubin..guessed that gave me the strength pull myself out of bed. Reached tenah merah at 9.55am.on time! haha..Thought i would be the earliest,but who knows, the moment i stepped out of the station,i saw piglet and cheecheemon sitting on the floor at one corner..all so punctual. Soon, yili and peishan joined us, also punctually at 10am..goodie.Took a bus to the jetty and was rather disturbed by the new image of the jetty as it looks so so commercialised now,with the berth and neatly aligned entrances for the expected tourists.. sigh..really dun want the only non-urbanised singapore land to end up under the hands of urbanisation and commercialisation. Stop engulfing the natural landscapes. The new jetty has no need for boat jumping anymore..the feeling of going ubin is so different now..there are also machines around to check all bags and luggages for people coming back to mainland from ubin. Just like another custom. It simply makes me wonder if it is really inevitable for every place to catch up and improve with all technological advancements? I want ubin to stay like this..

Luckily the jetty over at ubin is still the same old jetty..haha.. much to my relief. haha. At least the change is only limited to mainland singapore. Just hope that the development shall stop there. We still boat jump at ubin jetty..haha. We went to rent bikes the moment we stepped onto the island. Guess wat,the bikes cost only $3 for the whole day! yippee.. Cycled round the island from 11am when the sun is right overhead..haha..so hot but good time for tanning..it was funny to see the 5 of us panting when we were riding upslope..wonder how we endured those crazy rides around the island and how we also managed to “cheong” non-stop up and down the slopes, to and fro from one end to the other end of the island. It must be the office work and the non exercising weeks that weaken our stamina. And even more surprising is the fact that we take five every now and then, how was that possible when we were in oac? We are so slack and lousy now. *diaoz*

After pushing on for a few hours, the few of us finally set our foot at one of the seafood restaurants near the jetty. Heaven! Haha. The seafood was so fresh- the tender meat of the fish, the juicy and crispy baby squids. Yum yum. The meal was sumptuous! With a full stomach, we went to the jetty and were making our way back to mainland when I saw the weird and bored Caucasian again. The moment I see him, the first instinct is to run. It might sound funny, but trust me, he is a freak. I first met him, it as at a road junction and I nearly bum into him. He saw and then shouted “Danger oh danger!!” without paying much attention to him, I slowed down and dismissed the whole incident. But who knows, we just kept meeting him around the island and he made funny noises and comments—mostly to the air particles around him. That made him a freak that is pretty scary. He was like a soul loitering around the island making funny noises. The ultimate thing is that when we were waiting at the jetty, he came to the jetty too. Just when we want to ignore him as much as possible, he walked towards where we were sitting and joined in the little circle we have formed among ourselves. “Shall we go home together?” was what he sang and it just turned all of us away. From that minute, all of us pretended that none of us can understand English. It was pretty obvious that we were to share a boat and to our disgust, when the uncle came on board to collect the money for the ride, he handed him 2 ringgits instead of sing dollars la! He was really trying to be funny because he smiled when the uncle urged for sing dollars and later on, he issued his credit card or something like that la. Crazy fellow. In the end, the uncle can’t be bothered with him and started the boat without him paying, really weird fellow!

The few of us went to Tampines mall after that. It was another crazy trip la. The whole shopping mall was so crowded that the air con can’t be felt at all. The people looked like ants streaming up and down the escalator and I supposed I merged into the crowd too..haha. Nonetheless, it was a big shopping centre enough to satisfy my shopping craze. Ha! If not for the distance I have to travel, I will make another trip there to shop man! Haha..

More people to be added to the list that help to make my day:

1) " i am physically strong, i no need to go for the medical check up right?"
--haha, you need a proof for that la.. even if you think that you are really fit..

2) "Eh, i am coming to the admissions office to hand in my enrolment package, do i need to paste a stamp on the envelope?"
--oh my gosh.. i tried really hard to contain my laughter over the phone.. lolx

NKF show 2
Poor ah di, injured and he didn’t look good too, please get well soon!Kun da and nui nai looked good and I was pretty amused by shu wei, but anyway, great efforts, Singaporeans..

biTS n PiecEs

Happy to actually see tags from my seniors and meimei..haha. Short and simple notes but ya, pleasures and smiles =) Just a note to dear Sy, i will write you a long long and nice testimonial once i use my home computer to access the net. It is because i have been surfing from my office and friendster cannot be accessed from here cos they blocked the site. Saded. Haven log on to friendster for months. Sigh.

One of my officers just came into the office to say that those who intend to leave early, got to inform them by the middle of next week. It brightens up my day a little, till she added her last line-- hotline excluded. Why why why? sigh.. i know calls will still be coming in, but.. ya, i am getting tired too..hoping to resign earlier to settle down and do some other personal things. Never mind, shall only bring up the topic when the peak period is over.

Lunch time now.. the whole office is quiet except for the continuous ringing of the phones. Driving me crazy. A big big thanks to weiwei for her help during lunch breaks. *huGz*

juSt anothEr dAy wiTh firSt linE

Tension,stress,white lies,frustrations,irritations,unhappiness,helplessness,cluelessness as well as weariness are the emotions i am feeling right now. Complex aren't they? All mixed and stirred up inside. Can feel the heat and frenzy (if you call it) all around the office. Ranging from the front desk to the different rooms in the whole office. I am sorry if i am constantly bothering you and maybe even to the extent of bugging you for an answer,but i can't help it ya. I am in the most direct form of communication for the anxious applicants out there. I will try my best to do whatever i can,but still,there is only so much i can do as a temp. Hoping to run away,escape from all this even for a few minutes. This makes the toilet on the fourth storey a nice place to visit once in a while.. haha.

Band will be resuming this sat. Being MIA for almost two months,i am actually not looking forward to carry the almost 10kg instru though i miss playing it. Contradictary right? haha,that's life i supposed. Ironic and contradicting.

Looking forward to sunday,not only for the fact that there is no work, but also for the idea of going away from civilisation and urbanisation. Just hope that the sand flies at ubin will not be too friendly in welcoming me.. haha.

In addition, i am already hoping for another rotting session with my rotting gang--mei and ru after our rotting cum tai tai mahjong session. So carefree and relaxing. yippee!

grUmblings

Tired and sick..both physically and mentally. Think i need a break soon,before the weekend,so that i can recover from this flu or cold whatever you call it. Though i slept alot yesterday,and i actually felt better this morning,i can sense it coming back by now. Hate to be sick, feels so lethargic and heavy headed all the time. Oh man..realy hope to get well soon..Calls keep coming in..thought that with wanying around, the number of calls received per person could be more spread out..but obviously, this is not the case now..I wonder why they must call and ask questions that can be answered by the enrolment guide. They are not only hogging the line, which is ever so hot, but also making us repeat the same easy answers over and over again.. Why can't they READ first????? If the guide is not useful, why did we send them in the first place? You are simply depriving those who needs to call in the chance to get help. Inconsiderate people.

People whom help to make my day

1) When the call is put on hold, they shouted to their friends near them, "hey, the hotline is free right?"
--so what if the call is charged? Are you going to hang up my call? Bleah (-_-''')

2) Those who addressed madam here and madam there in the entire conversation

--haha

3) "oh,where is the admissions office? Eh, is there a guy there who speaks very softly?"
--Sorry..but lolx

4) Heart-felt gratitude and thanks when their problems are solved.

5)Polite parents as well students

Please please please don't grumble on and on about your family problems because i believe you know how to handle them better than me.

aftermath

hmm..dunno what got into me yesterday..guessed all those around me got affected by me to a certain extent yesterday..feel quite paiseh actually..maybe just mood swings ba..sorry to all whom i gave bad feelings to..dun mean to anyway..

After waking up today..everything is fine once again..looking at everything from another perspective..yep..happy..haha.. Guess this is part of growing up once again..not that i am going to repeat my lines of how growing up makes me think more and see more negative sides to life..i just got to cope with this change..this change in attitude that i am going to adopt towards certain people..the change and growth in me to treasure those who really worth my time and effort..Not to take anyone for granted is also one of the most important..it is always too late for regrets..apologises are not always adequate though they do help abit sometimes. When you apologise,make a sincere one, if not, it is best to remain quiet. Sometimes,it is really inevitable to think that life is hollow and empty with nothing,absolutely nothing to live for. I know i sound really pessimistic,but it is really how one will feel once in a while. After a day's hard work or maybe crazy havoc with friends, you wake up with nothing but another day to repeat itelf. On the brighter note,everyday brings about new experiences and surprises because you never know who you will meet. Yap, i am blabbering again, with no specific thought in mind, just thinking that life can be a meaningless, never ending cycle till the day you die.. haha.

Another day that i am anticipating for time to knock off. Bleah.

Night hike 2005

A dreamy weekend passed by..a hectic friday night of tuition followed by a seemingly long weekend that makes me forget almost everything about work..Hates this office all of a suddenly. It's cold..literally and figuratively to a certain extent.. whatever that is..it does not matter anymore.

Had a great weekend as i met up with my fellow oac pals to crash our juniors night hike..felt so so excited as it has been so long ever since the last time i trekked and felt the wee and silent hours of singapore.. haha..met most of the seniors at yishun mrt at 2145 on sat before we set off to lower pierce reservoir to start trekking.. Walked through the dark forest and gripped our way through the slippery and wet foilage..exciting sia. not that we have not tried it before.. just that the entire experience once again after so many months simply made it enjoyable and not tiring.. i supposed it was the slower and more relaxed pace as super seniors participating in the hike that made the journey more enjoyable than before. Managed to catch up with one another too.. yipee! Despite the slower pace we have taken, we managed to reach KAP at around 4 plus..took a really short nap and decided to walk home accompanied by weimin,cheemin,shiyun and huizhen at around 5am.. took us about an hour to reach bp..wah..really tired by then..went home for a bath before setting off to lim chu kang with my family to sao mu for my grandma..really tired but glad to tahan till 11 plus before i collapsed onto my bed...i slept all the way till 2 plus when i confirmed with hf that we wun be going out due to the rain..after which..i sank into deep sleep again..all the way till dinner time..haha..piggy..but cant be help it after missing one night's sleep. That goes my sunday and i am back to work once again today..yup..cant wait for it to end so that i can go home.. time,please fly!

Attitude!

Attitude is really the thing that really matters! No matter how good you look,how intelligent you are or how high the authority you are in! Whoever you are, with a bad attitude,nobody will respect you. Being loud does not mean that you are right,it also doesn't reflect efficiency,it simply reflects your personality. Sad to say,this kind of personality is bad,is one that i despise and hope to stay away from. By looking at you,i am learning and hoping that in future, if there is a chance for me to lead,i will not be like you.Though i don't have a perfect attitude,at least i know that mine is not a bad one. Being in the last year of my teenage years,i am starting to see the changes in me-- in terms of views and perception.Every little thing i witness will spark off chain reactions in my mind and if possible.. i will pen it here. Yup..that's all i got to say.

Love-hate relations

Went to work alone today cos wing is not feeling well..i was listening to Lee hom's album and thoughts began to fill up my blur and empty mind..When i heard 'forever love', i wonder if there will really be such a devoted lover living on this planet..is there really forever love in this world? Though really sweet and touching in its entirty,it seem so impossible and hard to get such love..Still remember that in my lit classes back in nj..we often discuss how love and hate are closely linked and related to each other..To most people, love is the direct opposite of hatred and vice versa..however, in actual fact, love and hate come together..if there is love,there will be hatred..sounds like i am sprouting nonsense right? But think..when you are in love with someone..does that mean that you really really love every single thing about him?Isn't there anything he does that you don't agree with and find it hard to comprehend?The more you love that someone..the more you will hate him when things go wrong because you will be so puzzled and confused as to why dun he understand..Love and hatred are both emotions..if you love someone..it is pretty obvious that you have feelings for him..but when you hate someone,you will think that you want to have nothing to do with this person..but never did you realise that it is actually when you care about that someone then you will hold such anger and dislike against him..it takes alot more energy and strength to hate and dislike someone as compared to the energy to love and like someone..it is only when you feel something(not limited to lovers ya) for that person then you will be bothered and affected by their actions..so..hatred actually comes with love and care..so..in future,when you think that you hate someone..think again.. is that person really worth the time and effort? if they are worth the effort,you will realise that you don't really hate them..but if they are not worth it..you should just leave them alone and don't even be bothered about them..With that..you might find yourself a happier person!